I Am Tiramisu

When a simple feat like reading a grocery list becomes as confusing as completing a single sheet of Suduko, I knew it was time to say farewell. No matter what. It wasnt actually much of the losing. But of dealing with the ones who were left behind. As always the case. Pity the young ones.
It was time to force the soul that had shut down tight to come alive. Yes, we will be okay.

The grocery was like a labyrinth that Ive been cruelly thrown into. Didnt wanna be there. Had to be there. So much had been said already. Time to fill up the emptiness with new beginnings. It probably took me the longest time to deal with the grocery list. Damn list..! What were on it anyway? It was just a list ...geeeez! But how do you really read it? Where was I suppose to start? Do I do top to bottom? Bottom to top? Left to right? ...Was I supposed to cross the item out once I have it in my cart? So now I need a PEN??! hehehe. And why did I have to go to an unfamiliar supermarket.

I bumped into a friend minutes ago and she said, "Do something different." I went to a supermarket Ive never been before. The items on the list seemed to be moving around too much. Arrrgg!!! It wasnt like it needed a rocket scientist to read the list. There were only 9 items on it!!!

It was time. I wasnt prepared to help them face their demons. Although I guess I held up my own. I have not prepared to face my demons. But it had been riding my back the past days. Time to shoo it away. We will be okay. We keep the faith.

"Maybe you have not grieved yourself...", Marmie said. There was no time, I thought. There was too much to do for the others.

We go on. I have to be done with the present so I could move on...

So many unanswered questions have been asked. I know I have not given them all answers.
We will never know. It's just is. And we go on. We heal. It had gone blank. Everything at the same time nothing. They are right, time for me now. Time for me to grieve now. Time for me to heal. They will be okay. We keep the faith.

Now I know what to do. Farewell. You are well now. Finally, I remember to exhale. Yes I smile now.