I Am Tiramisu

So I asked a successful friend (in her chosen career)..."In all the years that we've been friends, I practically know your every move every day...what day in those years did you suddenly wake up and decided that you wanted to become a doctor?"
She said she thought about it hard, finding out that she wanted to make a difference in her life.
If she were to ask me the same question, I would have given her the shortest "coz it was written in my DNA that I should be a doctor" kinda answer.
But as you all know, a doctor Im not. I have a feeling I just couldnt cut it. My friend never thought she could cut it. But she wanted it. I didnt. There's the difference. No matter how I said I wanted to be doctor since kindergarten till I was actually in pre-med school... it just wasnt in my heart.
I wanted to be an actress. Seriously. Then...no, not an actress really... someone to be the one to direct things. A director then? Nopes, not either.
So after almost 4 years of pre medical studies I packed my bags and went to a totally different world of ARTS.
And I knew I was home.
I didnt even study those 4 years.
I moved with the rhythm of my heart.
Hmmm... drama. HAHAHAHAA! I wanted to create the drama. I went off on vacations during exams week. Not minding the threats of failing grades if I dont show up. Coz when I do show up...I deliver. Funny how I made those projects in 30minutes tops while it took the others a month to conceptualize and do. I could literally see every single aspect of any project fly into its rightful place. It's just me. Tell me what you want. Give me 20 minutes to space out. See my eyes go blank. Zombie! HAHAHAHAHA. That's when you know Im thinking.
Could I have survived working in the above picture? I dont think so.
This is my world...



Do you believe that no matter how far you stray from what's in your heart, the BOSS will find a way to put you back in the right direction? I do. I always have actually.
And I keep telling that my friends who sometimes find themselves confused whether to follow their heart or peer pressure. I always say the heart.
Even while I was working at the bank more than 8 hours a day, I always made sure I go out and take photographs during weekends. Somehow I decided to give my old cam back to my papa for safekeeping. In the birth of the handy digital cameras I would still take photos with much thought and compositions.
When I graduated from Fine Arts, there was nothing to do. Advertising was not heard of in Cebu. We all had to go to Manila. But I didnt want to. I stayed. Ended up in a totally unrelated to arts kinda job. Made me say, maybe I took the wrong course. HOw many times have I heard almost everyone say 'why Fine Arts?'...'there's nothing there', 'things will only happen for you in HOllywood'. I should be healing the sick, tending to the injured. If I had become a doctor, it would be very easy when my own children gets very sick. Having a in-house doctor is probably the best thing when you have kids. Then again, I say, but I never wanted to be a doctor. I will have to trust and leave it to those good doctors who toiled for the past 10 years of their lives to be able to succeed, heal the sick, tend to the injured.
Because I will take pictures.
That is what I want to do. Create the drama. Freeze the moments. Create the moments.
More than a year ago, Joel put back the camera i my hands.
That is when I knew. Im here.
This is what I have wanted all along.
I did take the perfect course.
Thank YOU, BOSS.

Have you read the blog entry before this one?
Do you now know which show I ended up watching?