Sleep would be impossible tonight. Even I would know she would be, definitely and absolutely okay. We had the most wonderful day. Playing the whole Saturday.
I was clearing the books on the floor when she passed me. I glanced up and asked her where she was going.
"Upstairs with Ava, can we watch tv mommy?"
"Sure honey, but not too much"
"Okay mom."
I turned my back to put away the books when I heard the first thug. Instinct told me Alyssa had lost a footing on the stairs. My scream was the loudest that Ive ever heard. My legs didnt move fast enough to prevent her from falling. She did lose her footing by the 6th step, slipped and tried to grab the step with her left hand. But her hand slipped again...she fell on her stomach and bounced on every step going down to the first.
My nightmare.
Her pain. Her fright.
My baby. How her little body must be hurting.
If it were any consolation to the horrific scene that I just witnessed it was, I think, good that she bounced and landed on her stomach and not roll down the stairs. She had been holding up her head to avoid hitting the steps while she fell. But her right hip, leg and hand are bruised. I did not dare move her. A big enough bruise is on her poor little chin. She was crying of fright. Nothing hurts. I had been watching her closely since the fall. Watching for signs. She is active once again. Just complaining of her sore jaw. Everything is okay. No internal bruising as the xray has revealed.
I watch her now as she sleeps. Poor little baby.
Thank you Lord.
My heart shouts to St. Marie Eugenie!!! Please take care of your daughter.
Give her strength to take the aches.
Help me to help her drive away the fright she must be feeling now..
Amazing how my heart feels fear and hopelessness then suddenly comes awash with peace and faith when I surrender all.
Thank you thank you.
I pray nothing will hurt tomorrow. 24 hours. Please.
Ease the pain on her bruises.
My hand is aching now from clutching my St. Eugenie necklace tightly.
I know everything will be okay. She's okay. I was so scared.
For awhile I died.
I pray now.
I know it could have been worse, I know You were there. And when I do fall asleep, I know You will take care of my daughter.
I actually feel better now as I pray.
I feel YOU.
Thank you Lord. I can scream now! The tears are flowing now.
I cry now to thank YOU.
I will not be afraid. Learn to keep the faith.
That is what I have always told my daughters. What I must remember.
I knew You held her before I got to her. I shout Thank You Lord! Thank you St. Marie Eugenie!
Thank YOU.
I was clearing the books on the floor when she passed me. I glanced up and asked her where she was going.
"Upstairs with Ava, can we watch tv mommy?"
"Sure honey, but not too much"
"Okay mom."
I turned my back to put away the books when I heard the first thug. Instinct told me Alyssa had lost a footing on the stairs. My scream was the loudest that Ive ever heard. My legs didnt move fast enough to prevent her from falling. She did lose her footing by the 6th step, slipped and tried to grab the step with her left hand. But her hand slipped again...she fell on her stomach and bounced on every step going down to the first.
My nightmare.
Her pain. Her fright.
My baby. How her little body must be hurting.
If it were any consolation to the horrific scene that I just witnessed it was, I think, good that she bounced and landed on her stomach and not roll down the stairs. She had been holding up her head to avoid hitting the steps while she fell. But her right hip, leg and hand are bruised. I did not dare move her. A big enough bruise is on her poor little chin. She was crying of fright. Nothing hurts. I had been watching her closely since the fall. Watching for signs. She is active once again. Just complaining of her sore jaw. Everything is okay. No internal bruising as the xray has revealed.
I watch her now as she sleeps. Poor little baby.
Thank you Lord.
My heart shouts to St. Marie Eugenie!!! Please take care of your daughter.
Give her strength to take the aches.
Help me to help her drive away the fright she must be feeling now..
Amazing how my heart feels fear and hopelessness then suddenly comes awash with peace and faith when I surrender all.
Thank you thank you.
I pray nothing will hurt tomorrow. 24 hours. Please.
Ease the pain on her bruises.
My hand is aching now from clutching my St. Eugenie necklace tightly.
I know everything will be okay. She's okay. I was so scared.
For awhile I died.
I pray now.
I know it could have been worse, I know You were there. And when I do fall asleep, I know You will take care of my daughter.
I actually feel better now as I pray.
I feel YOU.
Thank you Lord. I can scream now! The tears are flowing now.
I cry now to thank YOU.
I will not be afraid. Learn to keep the faith.
That is what I have always told my daughters. What I must remember.
I knew You held her before I got to her. I shout Thank You Lord! Thank you St. Marie Eugenie!
Thank YOU.
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